“I Had An Abortion”
This is Part Three, a continuation of "I Need An Abortion”
As I got older, the Lord drew me to himself through my sibling’s prayers. One night while I was reading a Christian book, I repented. I was faced with the sin of my abortion and with my selfishness of self-preservation and people-pleasing. I opened my heart to Jesus and asked him to forgive me, a terrible sinner. From that moment forward, I had a hunger to know my Savior. I started to read the Bible and go to church.
“I had an abortion and it is my biggest regret in life.”
Shortly after my time of repentance, I got pregnant with our fifth child. Until then, I had never considered how abortion affected my husband. Deep down I think he felt badly about going along with the abortion and not supporting me in parenting our first child. Abortion leaves a deep wound in men’s hearts too.
Jesus has taken me on an amazing journey of healing and restoration over these decades since I first invited Him into my life. I am now born again, baptized and filled with the Holy Spirit with grace to speak about the redemptive power of Christ’s blood to save us all from sin.
“Abortion leaves a deep wound in men’s hearts too.”
I have forgiven myself and every person who didn’t support me in my time of need. I have forgiven my ob/gyn for shaming me in his office after the abortion—he did it publicly in front of staff and another patient. I have forgiven the doctor who performed the abortion and the staff who assisted in the abortion process. I now realize that we were all lost at that time. I am thankful I have been found and I pray that they will also come to a place of repentance and be saved.
I am not ashamed to say: I had an abortion and it is my biggest regret in life. I am not ashamed of my testimony of brokenness and redemption in my Savior Jesus Christ. I owe everything to Him.
Thank you to the brave woman who shared this story with us. Out of respect for her privacy, we will maintain her anonymity.
